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I'm Asyuhada ♥ I laugh over small things most of the time.

Aku Sayang Ini Bahalol. ♥ Through ups and downs, we will never give up to our destiny.

Aaiem. Adekgerlgerl. AiaiAhgerl. AisyahNurisha. AjexJoker. AllySugarSepet. AmaliahNaughty. Amy. Anepp. Aniey'ra. Ariffin Ipin. Aqil. Boi Jep. ChaCha Rawkstar. DinahCHAOS. Elis'SanchezLee. Farah Ayeen. Fyqa. Ijahsan. Ikaa AH-SIAW. ImranMonyet. Iiqaa Kechiiq. LutfilSmally. Mel Kechyqq. Melyumiko. Mira. MyraKeai. NanaCiner. NiesaRainbow. Nini. Nisa ShakeShake. Nunusiao. Nuyraeila. Nyoko Shiori. Puteri Elmo. Rarah. RaraSmallKid. Reez Romeo. RirinGadisRebel. Rudy. ShaShaBintang. Suriyana. SyaaJepon. SyahKechik. SyimahShawty. VJay. WaneeSmall. WanPrankster. WunnSachek. YanaBarney. YantiS. YayaRockstar. YayaTikos. Yeen. Yueling. Yuyun Barney. ZulfiSotong.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

With family's love, care and concern, even if it's a bit. It can change my life, my mind, my senses fully. Honestly, family is everything that I need. When problem strikes me, mum is always there for me. I like feeling the presence when I hugged her while crying on her shoulder. She will always comfort me with her sweet words. All I can say about my mum is, she'a a very strong mum. I'm proud to have someone like her. But it all changed when an unexpected person came to ruin our pace. Mum is not strong to overcome all those consequences yet she changed to someone who's irresponsible to take care of her own children. Seeing her everywhere I go, disappointment is all I get. And Dad had been trying his very best to prove us that he's somebody, dad made it. It's not by money or life, it's by showing his love towards us. I've been trying to understand both of my parents, but disappointment was what I will get in return every single time. When I browsed through our old family pictures where mum will always cook for us at home, will scold us for being rude, etc, I will feel so wrong for having this kind of family. But the orphanage made me realize that I still have hopes in life, I mustn't give up so easily, and I have to encourage dad for working every single day for us. It's because, even if mum can't help us, we shall prove her that we can make it without her in future. Dad knows us better, he's a responsible father. Now then I understand what's the meaning of having a perfect family tree, afterall the ups and downs me and my siblings have gone through together. And with this, I just want to elaborate something about life and family, what's the difference in having a perfect family tree and not having a perfect family tree. We can say we have a perfect family tree but the fact is, nobody's perfect. It's just the matter of wanting to make something perfect or not.

Love, Asyuhada Roselee.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

I sit where only the tips of the waves can reach, slapping my palms at the foamy water. The sand gritty between my toes, the ties of my sun bonnet tight under my chin. Big hands scoop me high. My father's face is close, leathered and smiling, his blue eyes sharp against his tan.
When he throws me, i laugh, safe in the knowledge that i shall be caught. My mother sits reading in a deckchair, her slender white freckled limbs neatly circled by the protective shadow of a large wooden parasol. She wears a blue sarong and matching hearscarf, from which one wild curl of auburn hair has broken free to bounce across her forehead. As i shriek, she peers over the black ridge of her sunglasses and smiles, her incquered eyelashes blinking in the glare. And now, how i wish i can bring those sweet times with my parents back again.

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine, I will still have you. If we see the last day and we were forced to go for a war, I'll be fighting with you. Because i know, if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground. And if the boat was sinking, you won't let me drown. And because we know, it's only us against the world. For me, it's all about you. For you, it's all about me. And we don't even give a dang about nobody.
But now, i can't count on you most of all when i really need it. It's the simple thing that you do really hurt my feelings. The more i tried, I'm starting to see it. This can't work anymore than you believe it. And how many times, i gave my heart. And how many times we fell apart? It's all useless. It's not worth it at all. The strength of Lies that is wide as the ocean, I'm just running out of wall and I wish I could look inside your mind. And i've been waiting for the day, when you realise, what we have come along all this while which will only happen once in a lifetime. You made it very clear, you made it on purpose. You made me feel so worthless, and you hurt us. And now, i feel like I'm standing outside the window, looking inside alone. You weren't there beside me anymore. How I wish, i could say hello to goodbye. Because I know, you will be gone forever.


I'm Asyuhada ♥ I laugh over small things most of the time. Aku Sayang Ini Bahalol. ♥ Through ups and downs, we will never give up to our destiny. Aaiem. Adekgerlgerl. AiaiAhgerl. AisyahNurisha. AjexJoker. AllySugarSepet. AmaliahNaughty. Amy. Anepp. Aniey'ra. Ariffin Ipin. Aqil. Boi Jep. ChaCha Rawkstar. DinahCHAOS. Elis'SanchezLee. Farah Ayeen. Fyqa. Ijahsan. Ikaa AH-SIAW. ImranMonyet. Iiqaa Kechiiq. LutfilSmally. Mel Kechyqq. Melyumiko. Mira. MyraKeai. NanaCiner. NiesaRainbow. Nini. Nisa ShakeShake. Nunusiao. Nuyraeila. Nyoko Shiori. Puteri Elmo. Rarah. RaraSmallKid. Reez Romeo. RirinGadisRebel. Rudy. ShaShaBintang. Suriyana. SyaaJepon. SyahKechik. SyimahShawty. VJay. WaneeSmall. WanPrankster. WunnSachek. YanaBarney. YantiS. YayaRockstar. YayaTikos. Yeen. Yueling. Yuyun Barney. ZulfiSotong.	Saturday, February 26, 2011 With family's love, care and concern, even if it's a bit. It can change my life, my mind, my senses fully. Honestly, family is everything that I need. When problem strikes me, mum is always there for me. I like feeling the presence when I hugged her while crying on her shoulder. She will always comfort me with her sweet words. All I can say about my mum is, she'a a very strong mum. I'm proud to have someone like her. But it all changed when an unexpected person came to ruin our pace. Mum is not strong to overcome all those consequences yet she changed to someone who's irresponsible to take care of her own children. Seeing her everywhere I go, disappointment is all I get. And Dad had been trying his very best to prove us that he's somebody, dad made it. It's not by money or life, it's by showing his love towards us. I've been trying to understand both of my parents, but disappointment was what I will get in return every single time. When I browsed through our old family pictures where mum will always cook for us at home, will scold us for being rude, etc, I will feel so wrong for having this kind of family. But the orphanage made me realize that I still have hopes in life, I mustn't give up so easily, and I have to encourage dad for working every single day for us. It's because, even if mum can't help us, we shall prove her that we can make it without her in future. Dad knows us better, he's a responsible father. Now then I understand what's the meaning of having a perfect family tree, afterall the ups and downs me and my siblings have gone through together. And with this, I just want to elaborate something about life and family, what's the difference in having a perfect family tree and not having a perfect family tree. We can say we have a perfect family tree but the fact is, nobody's perfect. It's just the matter of wanting to make something perfect or not. Love, Asyuhada Roselee. Wednesday, February 9, 2011 I sit where only the tips of the waves can reach, slapping my palms at the foamy water. The sand gritty between my toes, the ties of my sun bonnet tight under my chin. Big hands scoop me high. My father's face is close, leathered and smiling, his blue eyes sharp against his tan. When he throws me, i laugh, safe in the knowledge that i shall be caught. My mother sits reading in a deckchair, her slender white freckled limbs neatly circled by the protective shadow of a large wooden parasol. She wears a blue sarong and matching hearscarf, from which one wild curl of auburn hair has broken free to bounce across her forehead. As i shriek, she peers over the black ridge of her sunglasses and smiles, her incquered eyelashes blinking in the glare. And now, how i wish i can bring those sweet times with my parents back again. If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine, I will still have you. If we see the last day and we were forced to go for a war, I'll be fighting with you. Because i know, if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground. And if the boat was sinking, you won't let me drown. And because we know, it's only us against the world. For me, it's all about you. For you, it's all about me. And we don't even give a dang about nobody. But now, i can't count on you most of all when i really need it. It's the simple thing that you do really hurt my feelings. The more i tried, I'm starting to see it. This can't work anymore than you believe it. And how many times, i gave my heart. And how many times we fell apart? It's all useless. It's not worth it at all. The strength of Lies that is wide as the ocean, I'm just running out of wall and I wish I could look inside your mind. And i've been waiting for the day, when you realise, what we have come along all this while which will only happen once in a lifetime. You made it very clear, you made it on purpose. You made me feel so worthless, and you hurt us. And now, i feel like I'm standing outside the window, looking inside alone. You weren't there beside me anymore. How I wish, i could say hello to goodbye. Because I know, you will be gone forever.