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Asyuhada ♥ I laugh over small things most of the time.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

I sit where only the tips of the waves can reach, slapping my palms at the foamy water. The sand gritty between my toes, the ties of my sun bonnet tight under my chin. Big hands scoop me high. My father's face is close, leathered and smiling, his blue eyes sharp against his tan.
When he throws me, i laugh, safe in the knowledge that i shall be caught. My mother sits reading in a deckchair, her slender white freckled limbs neatly circled by the protective shadow of a large wooden parasol. She wears a blue sarong and matching hearscarf, from which one wild curl of auburn hair has broken free to bounce across her forehead. As i shriek, she peers over the black ridge of her sunglasses and smiles, her incquered eyelashes blinking in the glare. And now, how i wish i can bring those sweet times with my parents back again.

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine, I will still have you. If we see the last day and we were forced to go for a war, I'll be fighting with you. Because i know, if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground. And if the boat was sinking, you won't let me drown. And because we know, it's only us against the world. For me, it's all about you. For you, it's all about me. And we don't even give a dang about nobody.

But now, i can't count on you most of all when i really need it. It's the simple thing that you do really hurt my feelings. The more i tried, I'm starting to see it. This can't work anymore than you believe it. And how many times, i gave my heart. And how many times we fell apart? It's all useless. It's not worth it at all. The strength of Lies that is wide as the ocean, I'm just running out of wall and I wish I could look inside your mind. And i've been waiting for the day, when you realise, what we have come along all this while which will only happen once in a lifetime. You made it very clear, you made it on purpose. You made me feel so worthless, and you hurt us. And now, i feel like I'm standing outside the window, looking inside alone. You weren't there beside me anymore. How I wish, i could say hello to goodbye. Because I know, you will be gone forever.


Asyuhada ♥ I laugh over small things most of the time.	Wednesday, February 9, 2011 I sit where only the tips of the waves can reach, slapping my palms at the foamy water. The sand gritty between my toes, the ties of my sun bonnet tight under my chin. Big hands scoop me high. My father's face is close, leathered and smiling, his blue eyes sharp against his tan. When he throws me, i laugh, safe in the knowledge that i shall be caught. My mother sits reading in a deckchair, her slender white freckled limbs neatly circled by the protective shadow of a large wooden parasol. She wears a blue sarong and matching hearscarf, from which one wild curl of auburn hair has broken free to bounce across her forehead. As i shriek, she peers over the black ridge of her sunglasses and smiles, her incquered eyelashes blinking in the glare. And now, how i wish i can bring those sweet times with my parents back again. If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine, I will still have you. If we see the last day and we were forced to go for a war, I'll be fighting with you. Because i know, if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground. And if the boat was sinking, you won't let me drown. And because we know, it's only us against the world. For me, it's all about you. For you, it's all about me. And we don't even give a dang about nobody. But now, i can't count on you most of all when i really need it. It's the simple thing that you do really hurt my feelings. The more i tried, I'm starting to see it. This can't work anymore than you believe it. And how many times, i gave my heart. And how many times we fell apart? It's all useless. It's not worth it at all. The strength of Lies that is wide as the ocean, I'm just running out of wall and I wish I could look inside your mind. And i've been waiting for the day, when you realise, what we have come along all this while which will only happen once in a lifetime. You made it very clear, you made it on purpose. You made me feel so worthless, and you hurt us. And now, i feel like I'm standing outside the window, looking inside alone. You weren't there beside me anymore. How I wish, i could say hello to goodbye. Because I know, you will be gone forever.